Painting the Cold

She is lying there
On a soft silver silk, slightly wrinkled
Eyes opened to the sky
Lips colder than yesterday’s rain

I can picture her getting up and walking towards me
Unhurried and delicate
She looks exquisite as always
I continued to stand in bewilderment

I want to ask her about yesterday
About the meal she cooked,
The basil tea she made,
The painting she completed
I have hundred other things to know about yesterday

She came a lot closer or I went to her ?!
I could now see her eyelashes glued in hurt
Still smiling ?

I left her on the same silver silk robe
Eyes still opened to the sky
Still..? Yes!
Yesterday she had painted this very moment,
Me walking away with the canvas

The coldest I have ever been.

Yesterday

I was tempted yesterday

To read again

To kiss and smell that skin

Skin so cold and tired

I waited until it was raining

To bathe in your shallow gazes

To sing and to be taken away

Away into that wretched land of ours

I read you my favourite lines

To plead in vain

To bring you back from the picture

Picture I had from the Beginning of Everything.

Again

There is always a weight

Weight of an old painful smile

Enough to cloud any joyous moment of mine

How frightful it is to sit amidst everything wonderful !

And..

To think of someone thinking of you

To remember the one remembering you endlessly

To leave the moments never leaving you

And then..

To say hello to happiness

To drink and dance

To live and love.

Again.

പതുക്കെയാണ് / കവിത

പതുക്കെയാണ് മരണം ,

ദിവസങ്ങൾക്കൊടുവിൽ ,

പരക്കെയുള്ള നീളൻ പിടച്ചിടലുകൾക്കൊടുവിൽ

പതുക്കെയാണ് മരണം ,

കാത്തിരിപ്പിനൊടുവിൽ

കലർപ്പുള്ള വേനൽ

കാറ്റിനും മഴയ്ക്കുമൊടുവിൽ

പതുക്കെയാണ് മരണം ,

പലർക്കും നിനക്കുമെനിക്കും

നേരറിയാത്ത, നിഴൽ

പറഞ്ഞ കഥയ്ക്കൊടുവിൽ

കഥയ്ക്കുള്ളിൽ കാറ്റും മഴയും കുറച്ചു പിടച്ചിലുകളും മാത്രം

പതുക്കെയല്ലത്..

പ്രാണനറിഞ്ഞത് .

Last Visitor / Poem

She left a note , a brief one,

Few words hidden in dust and dirt

It must have been in her handbag for years now

Like a souvenir

He knew the lines, once.

He had scribbled them on a birthday

The only day she visits him..

Like an awful ritual

Today she looked different

Her hair unkempt, skin more wrinkled

But, those eyes were not meeting his,

Exactly like a decade ago

“Mother, Forgive me if possible,

Not for the crime I committed

But for the days you visit me”

She walked away slower than ever

And he, now, locked in a piece of paper

Drugged / Poem

Lights, lot of them.. in all colours

I see them getting bigger and brighter

I might be losing my mind

Or is it happening again

I should not write this down , not today

All I need to do is wait

And he will be home anytime soon

Eyes are stuck at the main door

I had asked him to paint it green

With antique carvings all over

Now the door is dusty and less green

Now it’s like me, hazy and more unseen

Door opened, I was half asleep

I saw his tired face and bulky bag

Between murmuring, my lips became wet,

Throat numb,

Body calm..

I slept again .

Another Sky / Poem

Another Sky

My eyes opened to an orange screen

Palms felt like holding a pineapple

Head still spinning

Heart hammering

When I was told, I tried to look around

Cold air rushing into my bed

I saw, windows with blue curtains

Flower vases and unknown faces

My hands were taken softly, tear drops and kisses on them

Am I theirs ..?

But only the little piece of sky looked familiar

Them Together / Poem

There is no apology whatsoever

No grief No guilt

No more merrymaking either

They are finally reaching nowhere

They have bodies of assorted memories

And minds dwell right beneath them

They have no mornings to claim

Only themselves to defame

Here I see them looking at the sky

Bereaved, lonely and cold

Here I see them holding hands

Redeemed, wholly and untold

Caved / Poem

She felt like an old cave

Existed from the beginning

But never seen or visited

Flooded drained and bloodstained

Clothed in a heap of seaweed

Crowned with an insane amount of greed

She looks forward for tired footsteps

And wait for cuckoo’s lamenting anthems

Clouds are turning silent

Just like her crumbled mind

Here comes the refugee

Here she enters the same elegy

കരിമഷി പറഞ്ഞത് .. / കവിത

പതിയെപ്പാടിയ പാട്ടിൽ നിന്നൊരീണം

പറന്നുവന്നു ചാരെയിരുന്നുവോയിന്നും

പാതിയടഞ്ഞ വാതിലിനപ്പുറം

കനലും കണ്ണുനീരും പടർന്ന വിരലൊന്നു കണ്ടുവോ നീയും

ആർക്കുമറിയാത്ത പേരിലൊന്നിൽ ഞാനൊളിച്ചുകഴിയവേ

കാറ്റും പേമാരിയും പിന്നെ കാലവും താണ്ടി

ഈ തകർന്നഭൂവിൽ,

എത്രദൂരം .. എത്രയാണ്ടുകൾ

നിഴലും നീറ്റലുമായി നമ്മളിനിയീ പിണക്കം പറഞ്ഞുതീർക്കും

പുതിയവൃണങ്ങൾ ചോദിക്കും നീയാരെന്ന് ..

കരിമഷിയപ്പൊഴും തിടുക്കത്തിൽ കഥമെനയും

കറുത്ത പുടവയും

കാതിലോലയും

പിന്നെയീ കാത്തിരിപ്പും ..

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ബാക്കി സർവ്വവും നീ .